10.20.2002

I think I write songs from a very interesting standpoint. In most songs you get a shred of insecurity mixed in there - in songs that have to do with relationships. The Andrew song is different though. Relationship songs generally come in one of two packages: lovey-dovey, and "look how sexy and single I am!" Ex., lovey-dovey: "Love, love me do. You know I love you. I'll always be true..." Ex., "Look how sexy and single I am!": "Now that you're out of my life, I'm so much better. You thought that I'd be weak without you, but I'm stronger." I just remember another type: "I'm so depressed because of you (or me)!" Ex.: "I can't say that you love me, so I cry and I'm hurting..." But the Andrew song is interestingly enough a combination of the three, without the insecurity. Each normal example is insecure, the first being clinging to another person, the second being, "If you're so OK and over someone, then why do you have to write a hit song to tell them how you feel?" and the third being obvious. But the Andrew song just says, "I liked you, but then I realized you're a dillhole, which is really a shame, because we have so much in common. But it was your call, and you blew it."

I think I like that aspect of songwriting.

In a past life I was Julius Caesar's ho. So I guess what I gotta do in this life is find Julius Caesar, reincarnated. I think John Lennon might have been Caesar, but I'm not sure.